I think I feel flutters!

It feels like buzzing or butterflies. I felt the flutters a couple times when using the doppler. It's such an awesome feeling.

Intelligender said . . .

BOY! I guess I'll see in 8-9 weeks if it's right. It was right with Duncan, but likely due to coincidence since it doesn't have a great accuracy rate.

I heard the bean's heartbeat!

Woohoo! It was faint at first and then I got it to stick and heard it loud and clear. It was in the high 170's to 180 bpm.

It's ALIVE!

We have a heartbeat! I was SO nervous about not seeing a heartbeat or measuring behind. The heartbeat measured in the 150's and the babe measured exactly 7 w 4 d. My exact calculation based on ovulation/conception. I very much look forward to the start of the second trimester. I'm oh so tired the majority of the time and the nausea seems to be in full force. This pregnancy appears to mimic my pregnancy with Duncan. I go back and forth between wanting a boy and wanting a girl, but I know I'll be happy no matter what. I know deep down I want another boy. One I get to have and keep. I guess I'll find out what we're having in about 10 weeks or so.

Strange Days

It's late and I'm *really* tired, which isn't normal for me because I usually don't begin to get *really* tired 'til 11:00 pm or later. The fatigue set in this afternoon and started to really show early evening. Fatigue has been my main symptom since about 4 weeks. I have gotten the occasional heartburn, but it isn't a symptom I get everyday. I developed a headache yesterday and later today. What's really interesting is that I kept saying I don't feel pregnant. Aside from the fatigue and now headaches I haven't really had much nausea or queasiness. That is, until, later this evening. The queasiness set in, though subtle, but definitely noticeable. It reminds me of early pregnancy with Duncan. I told Mark I didn't feel pregnant when I was 5 weeks. Then a week later I was hit with fatigue and nausea/queasiness. I wish this headache would go away. I feel very blah. I'm still trying to stay optimistic and hopeful about this pregnancy. I'm also waiting on Mark's call. I hope he calls soon. Off to bed now . . . .

Memory Glass pendant

You can see them here: Memory Glass

I got mine in apricot color to match Duncan's birth stone color, citrine.

Proustian Phenomenon

Last night before bed I lit a white sage incense stick. White sage will always remind me of my darkest time. It reminds me of the pain and heartache I felt days following the loss of Duncan. It also reminds me of the love and support I had around me. Lighting the white sage smudge the first time felt very cleansing. The scent brings back these memories and the emotions I experienced then. Every time I light a smudge or incense stick I feel a wave of emotions and memories wash over me. Sadness, pain, numbness, emptiness, and when the smoke clears I'm left feeling a sense of clarity and optimism. Another scent that transports me back to that time is neroli. When I received a crocheted baby blanket a friend made for me I applied some of my solid neroli perfume to it. Scents are very comforting to me. They're attached to feelings, emotions and memories. Those two scents will always live with me. They're attached to the most life changing event so far in my life.